crashingoutemotionallydrainedcrymyselftosleeptrappedonecagetoanotherlieslieslieslieslies
whatisthisfalseconcernwhereitisallaboutpreservingowninterestwillthereevenbehappinessformeorwillijustbelivingforotherslikealwayshowdifferentamifromacagebirdwouldthereeverbehappinessformeorwillijustgetbeusedtopainsallmylifeialwaystellmyselfnottolivelikemymotherwhomarriedamanwholoveshimandhisfamilymorethanhischosenfamilybutwhydoifeellikeiamslowlywalkingintomydreadedendingicannotlivelikethiswillthisbealivetimeregrettoleaveorwillitbealifetimeregrettoliveimadesacrificesbutmyheartistakenforgrantednobodycaresnobodycareswillieverbehappywillieverbehappywillieverbehappyillneverbehappycanieverbehappywillieverbeabletolivemyownlifecanieverescape
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tldr; losing myself. jaded.
