Him.

OMG, hello there!

It had been almost a year ago since my last post.
Just a little no-that-important update: I am no longer that whiny little girl I was in the past; I've put things far behind me; most importantly right now, am currently in a very idiotic relationship with this boy named after a drug. Yes, he is my drug.


Oh yes, I've never officially introduce him. Let me just start off with how we began (sorta..)

I love how our relationship is unique. Every couple started off as friends, and straight into their 'honeymoon' period, being all lovey dovey. Whereas us, we started off like some immature kids. Always quarreling, giving each other nonsense, fighting almost everyday. Have to be honest, it was a really toxic relationship. I wouldn't expect us to come this far.

Despite the unpleasant start, we manage to find our path and here we are now. I have always been keeping this relationship a low-profile one. Well, in fact I had been keeping him away from everyone. Please don't get me wrong. It's not that I am not proud of him by my side, in fact, I do love his presence very much.

Right from the beginning, he had always been by my side without fail. Regardless of all the nonsensical issues I gave him, he never left me. Always being my pillar of strength and support, my motivator, and my biggest fan. He never failed to remind me how beautiful I am (omg, ikr), how much he loves me. This idiot had given me his unconditional love, even when he knew that I had personal issues to deal with. Try his very best to give me everything that I want that is within his ability. And don't get me started with that time when I had gotten drunk (oops, I shouldn't had drank so much). It was already 4 in the morning when he received my friend's call. Without hesitation, he came down immediately to fetch me home. Like goddammit! Where can you ever find someone that is so so so god damn loving. The way he looks at you, ughhhhh.. as if you're his world! The distance he would go for just for you!

And dear readers, this is why I kept him as a secret, away from public's eyes. I don't want to let people know that I found a gem. I want him all for myself, so that I can appreciate and love him all I can by myself. It's just.. too complicated once people start knowing, I don't want to share my stories with others. Call me selfish, but I prefer keeping all this magical moments to myself. (:

I had never told him any of these feelings of mine. Why? BECAUSE OF PRIDE HAHAHA. And I'm sure that he will be all cocky and proud once he knows it HAHA. Oh well, I won't tell him anything I wrote on this post unless he chance upon it himself. Or, if he ever reads my blog one day.. (;