All my life i learnt that love is a noun -- love is an effort, love is a choice.
Unconditional love are unhealthy. love leads to heartbreak. loving your partner without expecting anything in return destroys you completely. it baffled me why people choose to stay within the situation when they are being treated unfairly. till i experienced love myself. been there, done that. thought to myself: never again. i am not strong enough to go through the same heartbreak once again.
I made peace with the fact that i could be living solo my entire life. i was contented with how life was for me. i gave up on seeking love.
But life works in mysterious ways.
Fast forward 2 years later, love found me through the most unexpected avenue. it caught me by surprise but i was cautious. thought to myself: what's there to lose? took the leap of faith, trusted the process, and i'm happy where i am now.
I now think that love can also be a verb -- loving someone unconditionally doesn't need to hurt.
He takes care of me, protects me, makes time for me, spends time with me, loves me in all ways i receive love. he doesn't ask for anything in return. he tells me he loves me, makes me his priority, plans for dates, discuss future plans together. he doesn't take me for granted, nor take advantage of my kindness. we understand the pain in each other’s previous relationships. he is the first person i opened up about my early adulthood traumas, he listened with care and understood how that pain shaped me into who i am today.
I wish that the good time stays as it is.
Nothing bad had happened. it’s just that as life goes on, things will be different be it good or bad. i just want to stay on like this forever if i could…. carefree, feeling so loved, and finally having someone by my side that i could call love.
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