Quiet Treason.

if given a chance to see into your own future, would you take it up? 

does the curiousity kill the cat? or will satisfaction bring it back to life?

having a sense of clarity and comfort helps me feel more in control of my future. even if the future is shown to me, would i choose to walk a different path? everyone claim wanting the best for me, but can they also swear that there is not the slightest selfishness in it? creating comfort not out of love? 

do i feel lucky? should i be happy? am i allowed to be blue? or will i be seen as ungrateful of their selfless act of love? am i allowed to feel?

living in a world where everyone gets to dictate a part of me, will i ever get to live an autonomous life? 

i might need therapy lmao.