Thunderclouds

If I have a wish right now, I would wish for happiness.

I really wish that I would stop overthinking on situations and just live life as it is. It's just too difficult for me to... trust. It's impossible for me to love.

The constant worry of everything turning into an one-sided effort is torturing me. I just can't have faith. There's no way for me to understand the situation.

Thinking back right now, it could just be me who is overestimating the situation. Maybe the feelings have been complicated by my overthinking and analysis? I honestly don't know. I'm so lost. I'm so helpless.

But I want to make this work. For the first time in such a long time, I am firm about what I want. I want us to work. There's no way I would allow myself to live life with regrets anymore.