Friends?

 Hey it had been a emotional roller coaster since my last update.

I’m not much of a storyteller so I’ll just cut to the chase and start today’s rant.

My grandfather had not been well since 2018 and he had been in and out of the hospital multiple times. Last year alone he was admitted to the hospital 3-4 times during circuit-breaker period. Eventually he was finally released of his pain and had passed on peacefully a month ago. 

For that two weeks he was admitted in the hospital, it was the toughest period for our family. Everyone is still grieving for our loss but he is finally relieved of his pain.

We held his funeral and posted/shared about his passing on social media since it is the fastest way to spread the news. I appreciate all of the condolences from friends/followers on social media, even from people that I rarely interact with. People whom I never expect would drop by the funeral came to pay their respect. What I did not expect is that people whom I consider as close friends did not even say anything.

Firstly, don’t get me wrong. I am not expecting that anyone should send me a condolence message or attend the funeral. Perhaps it was silly of me to think that these close friends of mine would at least send some sort of regards? I understand not everyone is comfortable sending a condolences but a simple “how are you holding up” is better than nothing.

I really like this bunch of friends but as much as I want to give the benefit of the doubt, it’s just difficult to not be upset when there are no calls, no texts, no regards sent by these so-called close friends. There is no way that they are not aware of my grandfather’s passing because: 1. it was on my social media; 2. I’ve casually brought it up in our group chat that I can’t celebrate CNY because of his passing when the topic came by but it was only followed by the regular conversation and nothing else. As much as I hate to take it personally it is simply a way to say that they do not regard me as a friend.

Perhaps not everyone has the same heart when it comes to friendship. Or maybe I should reconsider my friendships and people I regard as close friends.