Learning

Wow I’m surprised with how well I’m absorbing an awful fact. I’m actually calm af and chill about it. Got to admit that it suck and it definitely ruined my mood by a lot but damn why am I so chill about it?

Way to go Jov, you’re officially throwing your emotions aside.. time to go thru the phase of feel nothing at all once again. But let’s face it, what was I expecting again..? I always allow people to walk over me & then cry over how they treat me after? Damn Jovivi, you got to learn to stand up for yourself. You got to learn how to walk away from people. You got to learn how to let go. You got to learn your worth. You got to know that just because you’re afraid such happiness might not come again isn’t a reason for you to hold on. You got to understand that sometimes those happiness is just temporary. You got to understand that your mental health is worth more than holding on to those temporary happiness in life. And most importantly, you got to know that it can never be a one sided effort ever again.

You’re hurting now, but you’ll get through this. Just like all the other times that you did all by yourself. You made it so far, you can do it. Don’t drown in those silly thoughts.