Trainwreck

I'm truly satisfied where I am in life right now.. but that doesn't mean I'm actually happy.. what contradictory is this..?

Truth to be told, I dislike how certain "major" people are treating me in life now. "Major" = people whom I frequently see/meetup with lately.

One,
Can't emphasise how much I dislike it when I'm told what I should be doing.. or what I should feel/think about what I'm having in my current life.
The most recent thing that annoyed me was when someone told me that I should be giving chances to people - aka give chance to guys. First things first, what makes you think that I am not? Second, who are you to say that to me?
It may seem unreasonable of me to be reprimanding this person for such a casual remark/advice. But mind you, this person has been doing this for a very long time. Like.. what has my decision to give chances or date other guys have to do with you? Since the very start, he had been reminding me of "my place" and I'm honestly cool about how things are. But you know, when you are constantly being reminded of something that doesn't bother you, you start getting bothered by the fact that you're always being reminded of it?? And that was what happened for the past months. I do not need you to be continuously reminding me something that I am well aware of.
It is rather annoying to know that someone tries to pry information out of you too? Not too sure how to explain it through words.. when someone ask you a question, you can sort of tell the intention behind the question asked? Yea, that kind of prying for information. This person makes me feel that whenever he ask me questions related to boys/relationship, as if he's trying to pry into my private life to satisfy whatever curiousity within him? It could jolly well be me thinking too much behind these questions - I'll admit that I am not the best when it comes to hidden meanings. I just do not like the feeling when I'm being questioned in this way.

Two,
I do not appreciate it when someone meddle with my matters.
For the longest time ever, I hate it when someone tries to take my matters into their hands. I'm a strong believer of "whatever happens, happened for a reason". If it didn't happen, it probably did not occur due to some reason unknown (and need not to know) to me.
Funny enough, this other person thinks that she can play the role of cupid in my life. Honestly, it is insensitive af. I'll spare you the details, but this person did it too many damn times that she should even be involved. I would not be as bothered as I am now if the insensitive actions were done with my knowledge. But wow, it was all done behind my back.. without me knowing anything a single thing gdi. Unknowingly, I became what people call, desperate.. creepy.. crazy..? Truly appalled by what happened. Just to be clear yall, I'm not desperate for a relationship or a company. Right here right now, I can say that I'm not actively looking for a partner - but if it happens, it happens. And this is the message I have been giving to those who ask why am I single for so long. I mean, gdi stop it please. Hate it so much knowing that someone is trying to play god in my life.. If I was truly desperate, I wouldn't even be single now let alone give you the chance to do me so dirty behind my back.

Three,
Not accepting me for being me.
For the longest time, I have been trying to live up to others expectation of me. Being the kind of nice girl I should be just because I am expected to act that way. It is like every time I show someone close who I truly am, I am condemned to behave. Unfortunately, that is when I feel liberated.
For years, I was told to behave, to tone down, to know what is right from wrong. I behaved, I do not get wild, I do what is expected to be right. However, in this one year you guys have no idea how liberated I felt. I do what I think is right, whatever the hell I want, whatever that makes me happy. To be frank, this happiness is what I truly want. But I know this happiness will be a short-lived one. It is not right to indulge in this temporary happiness I'm living in.
In the past, when I showed my closed ones the real me, I got called unpleasant names such as "disgusting". Honestly, that shit hurts more when you think you can trust someone with showing your true self... This year alone, I took a big leap of faith, opened up and showed someone (who is not even a single bit close to me) the same me. It was accepted rather well by that someone. I guess it's because that someone is similar to me? I am truly happy when that part of me was accepted so well!!! But hey, even though I am delighted, I am skeptical too. What if I open up and I got stabbed right in the heart again? Right in the heart of trust.